It has become very obvious to me that I’m getting older. I’m turning 26 in a couple days, but for whatever reason I feel much older than that. Does anyone else feel that way?
It could be a combination of having another baby, getting little or no sleep at night, running after so many little ones my head is spinning in circles, or the fact that my body is still cracking and stiff in areas that shouldn’t be cracking and stiff for another 50 years. On the other hand, I feel so young- too young in fact- to have four children and to be done creating my family.
I know that I sometimes sound like a broken record, but I can’t help the emotions that are running through my head.
With my birthday around the corner I can’t help but feel a little depressed. At church on Sunday the Relief Society recognized all the February birthdays. It didn’t even occur to me that it was my birthday until they called my name. I started crying! It wasn’t anything hysterical but I had a huge lump in my throat and butterflies going crazy in my stomach. I can no longer claim that I’m in my early 20’s. It’s so not fair (am I even allowed to say that)!