I don’t know, I feel like I’m losing all control. Some days are great but it seems like they’re fewer and farther apart these days. Maybe it’s the holidays. They always seem to get pretty crazy. I think today I had just had enough. I had to walk out of the house and down the street to the park to cool off. I’m just tired of doing every… little… thing… for my children who are perfectly capable of doing it themselves. I was perfectly happy knowing I needed to do those things for them when they weren’t able to do it themselves. I loved it in fact. But as the kids have grown I’ve required more self-reliance from them. I don’t make them do outrageously difficult things but I do require some help around the house. But their work seems to have gotten worse over the last few weeks. For example, I’ll clean up their rooms after they go to bed only to have them wake up and DESTROY it before they even get ready in the morning. Then I have two hours before they get home to clean it back up and do all the other things I need to do to make it seem like I had a successful day only to have them come home and create havoc again.
So, now with all this frustration being written out while I’m sitting here at the park it doesn’t seem as dire and horrific as I was feeling it was just half an hour ago. Thinking about everything that has been frustrating me and with taking the time to write it out I can’t help but cool down. Maybe the fact that it’s 50° outside and I’m sitting on a cold bench has something to do with that 🙂 . It could also have something to do with the beautiful, clear night and the fact that I can see the stars. Living in the city (even when you’re 10 miles outside) doesn’t allow for the chance to see the stars. The sheer magnitude of it, even this close to the city, is breathtaking! You can’t help but feel so small and insignificant but somehow, in a very weird way, feel so important and fundamental. There has to be something that I need to learn from having these frustrating moments with my children. I might not realize it yet but in time I will.If there’s anything I’ve learned over the years of doing things and redoing things is that there’s always a reason. It’s just whether or not you’re willing to open your eyes to see it. So that’s what I’ll have to keep reminding myself until this “phase” is over and keep reminding me that the children are learning too and as long as we keep reading our scriptures and saying our prayers as a family we’ll pull through.
I think I just found my “time-out” spot!!! This was awesome!
Filed under Brianna, Kids
Tonight was difficult! It’s going to be that way for the rest of the month. It’s just something new that we have to adjust ourselves to. Jared has tithing settlement all this month and so we don’t get to see him at all on Sundays. Tonight was the First Presidency Christmas Devotional which the kids and I got to watch, in full! It was quite the accomplishment especially since I’ve been having a rough couple of weeks with the kids and their behavior.
The devotional had great stories and thoughts about how to make our Christmas experience better. They talked about being a good receiver which I thought was really important for the kids to hear.
As the devotional was finishing up and I was getting leftover cake prepared for after dinner, Jacob asked if it was for daddy. I said it was for them, the kids. Emma must have over heard because she came in and agreed with what I guess Jacob was trying to say. She said we should bring it to daddy since he was working hard and wouldn’t be home ’til late. I asked the boys if that was okay and everyone was on board. We gussied it up a bit and within 10 minutes we had a beautiful snow globe cake with the baby Jesus at the center. It would be the perfect dessert to give the bishopric after hearing the devotional and to kick off our Christmas holiday.
It has been a wonderful start to the Christmas holiday! Last week we got a package from The North Pole delivered to our doorstep. It was torture for the kids to come home from school, see it on the doorstep, see who it was from and not rip it open right then and there. The package was so amazing and everything that you’d want from a mysterious package this time of year 🙂 . It had stamps from all over the world but the best one said “Special Delivery from the North Pole”. I mean, come on! How great is that!?!
Well, we hadn’t even come to Thanksgiving yet and I’m a big believer in letting each holiday have it’s time so Jared and I made the kids wait until tonight, after Thanksgiving dinner, to open it. When it came time to actually open it Jared and I were a little giddy. We opened the box to find an even prettier box with a gold “Made in Santa’s Workshop” seal. With each layer the kids were squealing and Jared and I were inching closer to get a better look. We finally got the whole thing opened and saw that Santa sent us an ELF!!!
He is one of the cutest little things you’ve ever seen. The kids names him FRED!!! There was a book about him and explained all the rules, well the one rule – DON’T TOUCH!!! If you touch him his magic will disappear and he can’t fly back to Santa and tell him how good or bad you’ve been.
At one point while we were reading the book it said, “Tell me your thoughts and wishes and I’ll keep a list”. Right after that Emma looked at Fred and said, “Fred, I really want a baby sister!” Uh oh!!! Jared and didn’t really know how to respond to that one especially since it broke my heart just listening to her fervently asking. We explained, again, how I can’t have any more babies but that we could enjoy our friends’ babies and get ready for babysitting. Oh so sad 😦
Well this whole elf thing should be quite the experience. I’m hoping it will become one of those treasured traditions that the kids can’t wait to have with their own kids one day.
Emma has this little friend that lives down the street from us. They ride the bus home together and since her house is on the way to ours from the gate they walk home together too. She’s been over three times in just the last week, every time choosing to come over to our house. Her mother and father are divorced and her dad described the mother as a Disney mom, absent from the picture. Her dad is very involved and came over to meet us and see who her daughter has been spending so much time with.
Emma has had other little friends but nothing quite like the little friendship she has with Taylor. They are such girly girls playing dress up and doing each other’s makeup. They love when I paint their nails and helping me in the kitchen. They helped make Thanksgiving rolls the other day and were excited to see what they made.
Taylor came over the other day with this adorable Best Friends necklace and asked me to help her put it on. They went back and forth over who would get what color. I think I might have been a little more excited about the necklace than either of the girls 🙂 . It just signified so much to me that my daughter is getting older. She gets baptized in 6 months time and I can’t believe how big she’s getting. I still remember her being this tiny little dark-haired thing when she was 5 days old at Megan and Mike’s wedding. She has changed so much, although she’s still a little wisp of a thing 🙂 .
I’m so excited to be stepping into this phase of life with my daughter. She’s so much like me in that she loves to read, do crafty things, and is perfectly content with solitude but also so much unlike me that it will be such an adventure! She loves to talk on the phone, something I hardly ever did as a child which is exactly how my dad knew something was up when I would talk to Jared for hours on the phone 🙂 . Oh, I just love being a mom and watching my children grow but also celebrate the now!
Filed under Emma, Friends
Tonight for my date with Emma I took her shopping for a new coat. She outgrew hers by the end of last winter. For some strange reason it’s starting to get colder out here in the desert. They are starting to put cold weather clothing out in the stores and so I thought it would be nice to go and get a coat now, when we have lots of choices, rather than wait for everything to go off the shelves.
We chose to hit Target! There were so many cute options, some that are not even practical but they look so stinkin’ cute that you have to at least try them on. We grabbed hats and gloves and scarves and coats and hit the dressing room.
Emma is so ridiculously cute I couldn’t help but snap a few pictures of her trying on the clothes. We ended up getting both hats and the pink coat. The blue pea coat didn’t stand a chance once she found out that the pink one zipped apart and turned into two coats!!! She was sold!
So now we’re ready for the cold weather but knowing Vegas it will get warm for the next few weeks until we hit December.
Tonight was the school’s Fall Festival. This year I entered our car to be used for the trunk-or-treating. One of the fun things about using your car is decorating it. This year we went really simple. One of my young women needed some service hours for NHS and so I said she could come and man our car. My kids love Michaela and so it was really special to have her there with us at a family event. I had her dress in some of Jared’s clothes which were too big, and sit propped up in a lawn chair with the candy in her lap. The material was thin enough that she could see through and grab a kids’ hand or offer candy when needed. It made for a very basic decoration but it got right to the point of handing out candy and I don’t have a lot of Halloween decorations anyway.
I was completely surprised and baffled at the kids’, and even parents’ in some cases, response to our trunk. The kids were very apprehensive about approaching our car. Some parents wouldn’t even let their kids come up to it. Meanwhile, we had a trunk on one side of us with decapitated wolves (+gore), shrunken heads, and a huge bloody scythe in the trunk. On the other side there were zombies and tombstones and creepy pictures in frames. I couldn’t believe it when one mother actually yelled at ME because her daughter got scarred! I’d rather have a little scare from a harmless scarecrow than have nightmares because of the crazy stuff I saw next to me. Plus… it’s HALLOWEEN!!! Some people?!?!
Today I had to finish decorating the plastic pumpkins from the kids’ classes for the Fall Festival this weekend. There are so many things I want to do for Halloween but there doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day to get it all done. We finally just put up the decorations and I’m planning on buying some pumpkins next week to carve. Last year we never got around to that and I want to make sure we do that this year.
I like to make sure I get a wide variety of pumpkins for the teachers to pick from and make sure that they get the most bids possible. I had two pumpkins to decorate for Joseph’s class (am and pm classes) and this is what I came up with…
Emma’s class got the pumpkin chopped in half to make two matching frames (I thought Emma’s teacher would pick the sparkly one but I guess I was wrong and Emma was a little disappointed too)…
and Benjamin’s class got the crazy cauldron with the “IT” popping out of it! Fun stuff!!!